Sunday, April 8, 2012

Coming back from TBI

http://melodyross.typepad.com/my_weblog/2012/02/what-love-isand-how-it-saved-my-marriage.html

I can tell you this means a lot to me to read a friend sent this link to me in an e-mail. I am on the Marq end of this story and it is just as hard coming from that side. When I woke up after my traumatic brain injury in the hospital and I was not the me I had once been it was so very hard for me. I was so very scared, angry and confused it hurt all over and it was not from any injuries that you could see. I did not know how to tell the ones I loved all of this. I have learned so much and I have come a long way in the last nineteen months since this happened but, I am not all the way back I do fight to be back every day. Even if I seem angry, scared, confused or to happy at times it is still me trying to get back what I lost that day. I have come to find that I may not get it back, I will not stop trying to get it back but what I build from this day forward is stronger through the love and help of my family and friends.
Seeing it from Melody's side helps me a lot because as we all know men to do talk to much about feelings and I know that my husband has had to deal with so much from me he is strong like Melody he has stood there rock solid in front of me when I have needed it most. He has cried with me held me tight and been scared himself with all that I went through and then to top it all of and find out that he had a tumor and needed brain surgery just six short months after mine really helped to push me forward in my recovery. Mostly because I am a care taker it is what I do best.

Thank you for reading this,

Flexie:0)

3 comments:

LindainNCtoo said...

I miss your postings, Flexie. :)

Carolyn King said...

Great link. Yes, men are so different than women in how they express their feelings and deal with hardships. Glad you are fighting and getting better. I want to hear all about your running.

Thanks for your sweet comment on my running post. Hope you are feeling great and getting back into running asap

Becky said...

Flex, Omigosh. I knew that "I" had been lost in blog la la land and dealing with "life" in my own world, but I had absolutely NO idea that you were also dealing with pain and sorrow. That you were struggling...with far more trying things than I could ever phathom. I read back some. And all that I can say is WOW. Did your beloved get his hearing aid? Is it working and are you watching tv in harmony once again? And you...dear one. Simple ((HUGS)) are all I can give. Wow. What a remarkable woman.

Thank you too for the reference to the story...I needed to hear this.

Many many countless thoughts and prayers for you bloggy friend.