Sunday, April 8, 2012

Coming back from TBI

I can tell you this means a lot to me to read a friend sent this link to me in an e-mail. I am on the Marq end of this story and it is just as hard coming from that side. When I woke up after my traumatic brain injury in the hospital and I was not the me I had once been it was so very hard for me. I was so very scared, angry and confused it hurt all over and it was not from any injuries that you could see. I did not know how to tell the ones I loved all of this. I have learned so much and I have come a long way in the last nineteen months since this happened but, I am not all the way back I do fight to be back every day. Even if I seem angry, scared, confused or to happy at times it is still me trying to get back what I lost that day. I have come to find that I may not get it back, I will not stop trying to get it back but what I build from this day forward is stronger through the love and help of my family and friends.
Seeing it from Melody's side helps me a lot because as we all know men to do talk to much about feelings and I know that my husband has had to deal with so much from me he is strong like Melody he has stood there rock solid in front of me when I have needed it most. He has cried with me held me tight and been scared himself with all that I went through and then to top it all of and find out that he had a tumor and needed brain surgery just six short months after mine really helped to push me forward in my recovery. Mostly because I am a care taker it is what I do best.

Thank you for reading this,



LindainNCtoo said...

I miss your postings, Flexie. :)

Carolyn King said...

Great link. Yes, men are so different than women in how they express their feelings and deal with hardships. Glad you are fighting and getting better. I want to hear all about your running.

Thanks for your sweet comment on my running post. Hope you are feeling great and getting back into running asap

Becky @ Domestic Briefcase said...

Flex, Omigosh. I knew that "I" had been lost in blog la la land and dealing with "life" in my own world, but I had absolutely NO idea that you were also dealing with pain and sorrow. That you were struggling...with far more trying things than I could ever phathom. I read back some. And all that I can say is WOW. Did your beloved get his hearing aid? Is it working and are you watching tv in harmony once again? And you...dear one. Simple ((HUGS)) are all I can give. Wow. What a remarkable woman.

Thank you too for the reference to the story...I needed to hear this.

Many many countless thoughts and prayers for you bloggy friend.